slacker

I am a blog slacker! I admit it.

I, sometimes, just get tired of saying the same things..seizures, seizures, seizures....

So since her last hospital admit Emily has been ok. Seizures daily but they are manageable.

We got her home oxygen and oxygen saturation monitor delivered last week. Getting those, hopefully, will keep her out of the hospital more during cold and flu season. The main reason she goes in the hospital is because we have to give her so much medicine to stop her seizures she gets sedated and needs to be monitored. This way we can throw the monitor on her and feel more confident about staying home and avoid a chance at her getting sick from germs in the hospital.

I am not holding my breath but she is SUPPOSED to get shower chair and new medical stroller today. Once I get them I will post pics.

Right now it has been 2 1/2 days since her last seizure. She is still having spasms this whole time but no seizures that I have seen. She even slept last night from 10:30PM-4AM.

We did get to go to church on Sunday. I was nervous because we, along with two other men, we asked to speak on the topic of suffering. So, yea that was hard. In the end I felt good about letting my church family know how we feel. We feel so blessed to have them care so much about us!!

This was also the first time I have let anyone watch Emily at church. During first service my friend, Angie, just set in service and held her so I could see her the whole time. During 2nd service she took her down stairs and said if she needed me she would send someone up to get me. About half way through someone stuck their head in and motioned me to come. When I got down there she was crying so hard and as soon as I took her she stopped. We have been having some separation anxiety issues lately especially when she wants comforted. I hate that others have so much trouble calming her down BUT it is a normal 17 month old behavior :)

I was afraid Emily would just shut down but she did very well with all the sounds and one of our friends, Chasity, even got her to smile. That is a pretty big deal because normally she will only smile for us.

Later that evening we had a visit from Emily's great-aunt Shirley and Emily really enjoyed being loved on and started to fall asleep in her arms without her paci! Emily loves her paci :)

It was a fun but busy day and I am so proud of Emily, she was such a good girl!

She had her cardiology appt yesterday and it went well. She still has a "very tiny" pvo (hole) in her heart but he feels it will be just fine on its own. She also has an innocent murmur because she has false tendons, he described them as like "pumpkin guts" and when the blood flows over them you hear an extra sound. He is actually the only one to ever hear it. So we don't have to go back and see him for 1-2 years!

Yesterday I changed Emily's g-tube! I know this sounds silly but I was very nervous and I made sure Emily's nurse was here but I did it all myself so that I would feel comfortable in the future. I piece of the tab you use to open it broke off, it was still usable but it would have to be changed soon anyway.  It was easy and now I don't worry if I have to do it again.

Sorry for the lack of picture, I need to download them from my camera. I promise more next blog, whenever that will be :)

general update all things Emily

I just thought I would update everyone on Emily in general.

I talk about her seizures more than anything and it gets easy not to talk about the other things she has going on.

Lets get the seizures out of the way first.

She went 7 days with no seizures and had a 50% reduction in spasms. On the 7th day her spasms increased and she began to seize again. This time it only lasted 3 days and only 2 of those days required minimal extra meds to control them. Right now she is at almost 36 hours with no seizures and her spasms are super short and very weak and are down about 50% from what she normally does.

We changed one of her her fat sources on the ketogentic diet from canola oil to butter and we have seen an improvement with seizures. Don't know if it is just a coincidence or not but I will take it!

Developmentally she is right around a 4 month age level. I look back at video of her at 4 months old and she is doing things all over again. She is moving so much while she is laying down. She wants to badly to set up and I think she will get there soon! Her head control is getting pretty consistent, it of course is weak when she is tired but she is doing really well with it.

Emily has always been a clingy baby but lately it has gotten worse. She knows who she wants and will let you know if it is not you. Sometimes she only wants me and other times she just wants her daddy.

She has never liked any type of seat. She hates everything we have tried so she sets on the couch with us a lot on her boppy with a pillow under it to set her up but the last couple of weeks she just gets fussy and won't take her passy and it gets hard to hold her all of the time. One day when she was not happy I just set her up on the couch next to me and she was happy as a lark! Now that is all she wants to do. I think it is great because she is tolerating setting up and it is making her core stronger.

Her vision is getting so much better as well! Before I would have to say something to get her attention but now I can just walk in the room and she smiles because she sees me and recognizes my face. This makes me very happy. I have noticed her looking at the computer and the ceiling fan most recently too.

She still does not have teeth. At her most recent ped appt she said not to worry about it until she is 18 months old (she is 16 now) and then she would get x-rays. We have seen her teeth on an MRI before so I know they are there, just don't know why the won't break through.

She has no desire to eat ANYTHING. I try but she acts like I am feeding her acid. She especially dislikes water. She always has. Thank goodness for a g-tube. :)

We still have a long way to go with her sensory issues. She completely shuts down when we go out. Her pediatrician does not know her well, thankfully we don't go often, so last week she looked at Emily, who just got finished crying her self to sleep, and she asked if she looks at things or me. I am sure she did not believe me when I told her everything she is doing but I can't make her like going out and I can't make her tolerate a million sounds and smells at one time. We are working on it.

Last but not least...sleep.

Clearly there has not been an improvement (hence the blog at 4AM)

When she we seizure-free for 7 days I was beginning to get her on a better schedule but one seizure can ruin all of my work. Right now she is laying next to me kicking her legs and "talking" to me. I am giving daddy a couple more hours and then I am going to bed.

I could go on for days but I will stop.

I have another blog to post tomorrow. We have a friend ,Christy, who is doing a small fundraiser for us. It is more for locals but I will tell everyone the details tomorrow.

Lately

It has been a pretty eventful week or so.

Emily's seizures were still pretty frequent after her last hospital stay so Last Monday I called her neurologist to talk about what is next and we decided to bring her in to do a couple days of IV steroids. In the past it has always worked very good for her.

It seemed that they got worse this time. We made a few med changes and sped up the process of switching her to food from formula. She is still on the ketogenic diet I just make her meals now instead of the ketocal formula. Personally i think that has made a difference. She is not nearly as gassy and hardly spits up at all.

She is eating at least a portion of each meal and what she does not eat I just put down her tube.

We finally have stopped her clonazepam and as of Monday she will be off her lamictal too. I never saw any side effects of the lamictal but we also never saw an improvement.

Stopping the clonezepam has been such a blessing though! Emily is so much more alert and you can see in her eyes that she is seeing more too!

On Saturday while I was sleeping Joe got a video with his cell phone of Emily laughing. It is the most awesome thing ever! She has not laughed (awake) in so so long! Joe said that he opened his pop can and she cracked up so he snapped his fingers and she laughed again. He then coughed and she was laughing so hard all she could do was squeal! She has done this two nights in a row now. I got a video but it is too long. I will work on getting a shorter one to upload.

She is also resting so much better. She is sleeping at least part of the night since we got home and just seems much more rested when she wakes up.

Since leaving the hospital her seizures have gone down to 5-10 per day plus her spasms. They are super short too.

It was a long hospital stay and it always sucks but since Emily has been in so many times we have really gotten to know a lot of the staff and it is nice to have friends while we are there. People that set down and pray with us and for her or just set down and talk. There are a couple of night shift nurses we have grown to love, Alisha and Stephanie kept me company many nights and I am thankful they love Emily and take such good care of her. There are so many people there that love her!

I had a couple rough days in the hospital watching my baby seize over and over for hours on end. Over the last week I have had a couple of wonderful emails from parents who understand, I know I am not alone in these emotions.

On a completely different note...

I was thinking about my post a little while back where I was just honest and raw with my emotions. While I am terribly sad that people have chosen to remove themselves from our lives I am much more sad for them. They are missing the opportunity to get to know an amazing little girl. Emily is such a blessing and to see her smile and laugh brings such joy to my heart.

Thank you all so much for the prayers

burst your bubble

We had to make a trip to the ER last night and it had nothing to do with seizures!

Who ever thought that would be an exciting comment haha!!

I was changing Emily's diaper, getting her ready for OT, laid her down and her g-tube was sticking out much further than normal. I pushed it back in and quickly checked the amount of fluid in the balloon that holds it in place and all I got was formula.

That meant that the balloon in her belly had popped and I was pulling formula from her stomach that I had just fed her. I taped a gauze dressing tightly over the g-tube (which was still in place) and we took her to the ER.

The balloon on the bottom is what is inside of her stomach.

The dr. in the ER took out the old and popped a new one right in. No problems at all. Emily slept in daddy's lap the whole time.

We were told that we are model parents! Yay pat on the back for us. Her stoma site (hole in her belly) was perfect and very clean.

You know its bad when the ER doctor walks in the room and is happy that we are there for just a g-tube issue.

You see some very interesting things in the ER waiting room. Some people use the ER as their pediatrician. One mom brought her 6 or 7 year old in because she "threw up last night" seriously lady! Another brought her 2-3 year old in because he was chewing on glass and she was afraid he may have swallowed some hmmm perhaps.

Having a sick child makes you look at other peoples emergencies and almost laugh. Ha, your kid swallowed glass, well mine can seize for hours on end. Do they make bumper stickers that say that? haha

Sometimes you just have to laugh!

no rest for the weary

I feel like all I ever talk about is sleep. The lack there of I should say. When you never get good sleep that is all you can think about!

Emily did not fall asleep until 2pm yesterday! Joe came home from work and I got to sleep after 3pm and slept until 9pm when he had to go to sleep.

She had an appt with the nurse practitioner to look at her g-tube. Everything looked good. She commented on how good Emily looked(weight wise). Well she went from 2% in her weight before the g-tube and now she is in the 10%.

She also had quite a few seizures too. She is super gassy, from her formula, and I just know all of her teeth are going to come in at the same time! I have been giving her mylicon drops and oragel swabs to help but I am not sure how much it actually helps.

So I am praying that she does not have more seizure today, I hate giving her so much medicine but if we don't give her meds quickly then she spirals out of control and we have such a hard time stopping them.

Busy day today, therapy in the morning then an afternoon appt with the ped.

surgery day

It's been a very long day.

Emily had her g-tube placed this morning at 9:30am.

Everything was pretty much text book. It took at long as they said it would for the actual surgery and recovery went well. She woke up within an hour and they brought her to us and she has slept most of the day.

She finally woke up and starting having her spasms. She only had 4 clusters of spasms yesterday and 2 before surgery. I was hoping this pattern would continue. Once she started it was really hard to get her to stop again.

Her spasms only lasted about 10 minutes then she went into her twitching seizures. Her mouth and feet twitch very slightly (in cluster also) and this went on for over an hour. We gave her 2 doses of .25mg of klonopin and an iv dose of ativan. Sister has a major tolerance to medicine that's for sure.

You would not even know she had surgery, she has been so happy and kicking her legs. I even just got a good laugh laugh of her!

Emily with her Louisville doll her grandma got her today. We love the Cards!!!

This is just 12 hours after her surgery, kids are so resilient!

We are praying for a uneventful night and lots of sleep for all! Sleep would be great!

We just want to thank everyone for all the support and prayers we have and continue to get.

I can't fathom how many people are praying for our little girl!

Thank you!